Help! Drunk Monkeys Are Running Around My Brain.

Life-Purpose, Jo Castro with Stuart McGunigall on Sea Princess

I’m having a bit of a ‘bleugh’ day today. I don’t feel particularly well, and as a result everything seems that bit harder. So I’m having a bit of a moment, and telling myself to remember just “Go Smile”, keep up the good fight, and be happy, like I was above. (That’s Stuart McGunigall, Cruise Director with Princess Cruises pictured with me.)

For me today, there’s shopping to do, and the house needs a clean, I haven’t written my newsletter, it’s taken me two hours to choose and resize 12 photos for an article going in a cruise magazine, I have another article deadline, and I’m going to be on 6PR Radio again and I need to prepare what I’m going to talk about or I’ll sound like a bumbling idiot.

So I’m sitting here on my bed battling nausea, with a cup of Rooibos tea, and chatting to you instead! Much more agreeable.

But those drunk monkeys are busy in my brain, whipping up trouble, doubting my purpose in life.

Life Purpose

Oh that downward spiral!

When we feel like this it’s all too easy to wallow in the slime of self pity, isn’t it? Which leads in a downward spiral to a drop in self confidence.

I’ve had to bring myself back into line as the drunk moneys in my head started cackling, “Well, you obviously have no real purpose in life,” and then they started demeaning blogging too. “It’s all a waste of time? Why do you blog?” they volleyed as I was fretting over my editorial calendar and to-do list. “Blogging is narcissistic and frivolous!” those monkeys went on.

Gulp. My brain swirled. Some of my friends and family are in service to the world, changing the big bad world by doing one massively good deed at a time. Others have high flying professional careers. When I think about this my confidence withers and looks for a nice big log to crawl under. What am I? I’m a lifestyle and travel blogger. Oh, and I used to be a stay-at-home-mum.

Be the best version of you

But onwards and upwards soldiers all. My blogging message always is and always will be to do the best you can with the knowledge and abilities you have available at the time, in the circumstances you find yourself in. And always Be You, the best version of you.

As Dr Seuss said, we all have a unique purpose: “Today you are you! That is truer than true! There is no one alive who is you-er than you!”

Hold on to your confidence, whip the drunk monkeys back in line, but also keep doing things that are out of your comfort zone so that you continue to learn and grow.

Which reminded me of an interview I did on Sea Princess, on The Wake Show, the ship’s version of Morning TV, a short while after we’d embarked on our world cruise adventure. I was scared, I was worried I couldn’t do it, and to tell you the truth I was perspiring profusely. You may laugh, but it reminds me today that I can, and should just get up, dress up and get out there regardless of what the little demons in my head are telling me. I’m a blogger – dammit! I love what I do. And the stats tell me that some people really do enjoy what I write.

How to rediscover your Life Purpose

I think most of us suffer from time to time and think that we have no purpose in life. It can be incredibly debilitating to feel disconnected from what we feel we should be doing in our lives.

Here’s how I go about dealing with my ‘bleugh’ no purpose days to buck me into action again.

  • I rejoice in  the things I love doing that make me feel passionate, energetic and alive. These I know are parts in the jigsaw of my life purpose.
  • I go for a walk and pay attention to, and marvel at nature.
  • I tell myself that I am me, just me, but I must do the best I can with whatever I’m tasked with.
  • I imagine that I’m at the end of my life and I’m telling my great-grandchildren about the things I did.
  • I make a plan to help one person today in whatever way I can.
  • I wonder about the words which might be written in my epitaph, and what I’d really like to be remembered for.

If you’re having a blue-kinda-day with too much on your to-do list, I hear you. What’s getting on your wick? Do you have drunk monkeys running around your brain? Why not let them loose in the comments and tell us what you’d like to be remembered for 🙂


  1. Hope you’ve recovered now!! We all have those days – you’ve just got to get on with anything and wait until it passes 🙂 And remember or talk with friends, family and people like me who think you’re marvelous 🙂

  2. I have never heard of the phrase “drunk monkeys running around in your head”. Ha ha I love it! It describes that busy brain all over the place feeling perfectly. I think we all have times of self doubt and not feeling good enough. There is so much pressure to be good at everything these days. Like you, I go for a long walk to put everything back into perspective and then come back and start again.

  3. I think we all have those days. It’s hard to always feel as if you’re on the right path with a great life purpose. I think your tips are sound.

  4. Janet Camilleri aka Middle Aged Mama says:

    Jo, if you are a failure as a blogger, what hope is there for the rest of us?!!!

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